This is an intriguing quote following a long and contentious criminal trial with an interesting insight into a juror’s mind. In the end, a Motion for New Trial was overruled. I think you may see why judges are so loath to grant new trials.
We, the jury, spent 18 days on the case. I didn’t pick my kids up from school 18 times. I missed teaching 108 classes. 165 kids didn’t have a meaningful learning experience 18 times each. And those were just the things I missed. The other 11 who sat beside me in the box missed their lives as well. Four of us are teachers, actually. We deliberated, debated testimonies and poured through about 150 admitted pieces of evidence. Some of them were documents amounting to hundreds of pages. We searched our souls and agonized over doing this correctly. We went line by line through 19 pages of instructions from the judge, multiple times, to make sure we were adhering to the law. Then, when sentencing came, we weighed justice and mercy. What would help him learn from the consequences of his actions? What would be fair justice to the person stolen from? I learned so much about our judicial system. I was impressed with the thoroughness of the attorneys on both sides. Something incredibly complex with twists and turns I can’t begin to describe was clearly laid out. I was mostly impressed with my fellow jurors–strangers who were as devoted to justice and truth as I was. The pressure and length of our time together brought us close together and they are people I’m now proud to know. A year ago today, I lost faith in our system’s ability to seek truth. In this process, it has been restored. So thankful that this motion wasn’t granted and our hard work stands.